K, this isn't based on a true
story of mine. I just typed it instantly when I saw my friend was sitting
alone in the corner of class.
Sometimes, I want to ask everyone “do you ever
feel all alone in a crowded room?”. I don’t know why are that words can
“fit perfectly” in my brain. Perhaps, it’s because of I’m a loner. Sometimes I feel like I
have no friends.
Some people I called “friends”, can’t, or maybe won’t be with me when I need
them. So, I prefer be alone than have so much “friends”.
I can’t easily make friends with
everybody. When I’m with the other else in the organization’s gather, I’d only
sit alone. All I want to do were be quiet, sit alone, or look at the others
talk and laugh loudly. Sometimes I ask to myself, “are they laughing at me?”,
“do they feel pity on me, The Loner?”, “why are they don’t want to make friends
(at least, talk) with me?”, “am I ugly?”, “am I smelly?” and of course,
I need some answers from those questions.
When I’m being quiet, doesn't mean my
brain is doing the same thing. I often think of everything and daydream all the
time. I had so much the words that I won’t tell anyone and things that I
thought everybody don’t have to know. But still, I don’t want to be alone
honestly.
I’m a loner, but I still have music
which always with me. Sometimes I feel that music is my only one friend. When I’m sad,
happy, jealous, in love, angry, sleepy, or in any situations I always listen to my favorite music. I’m pretty sure that my music taste is better than the others, because
I always have so much time to explore and find out more about music. It’s
absolutely better than just talk about someone else, isn’t it?
As a loner, absolutely I’m not a popular
student in my school. Although I’m not popular, but as a teenager, I also can
fall in love, I also had so many dreams, I also can get hurt. Maybe you should
know, sometimes I
feel like being ignored and it really hurts me. I only can
entertain myself by listen to music and I always hope that my loneliness will
be end soon.
I often imagine I was a popular
student in my school, I had so many friends, I had a boyfriend, I got
everything I want, I had party every Friday night, and I had the perfect life.
No days I spent without my best friends. But I know God is the
wisest,
He knows how to make all humans on this Earth feel happy by so many ways. I believe
that The
Loner like me also can be happy with my own way.
But although I feel like I have no
friends, I always do the best for me, for my own life, for my family, and for
everybody. I want to prove
them that I can
do it myself. I only need to make an effort and pray to God, may He give me a
chance to be the best. I just want to be admitted by everyone, and make them feel
happy all the time.
One day, after I do my best, I’ll get what
I reach.
I will be success and I will get the happiness. I will help the unfortunate people
and I will save the people who feel like being ignored. I don’t want anyone
feel the same as I do, and I won’t let anyone to be like me.
